Poem from my poem book, "Comfortably Numb"

Comfortably Numb

In your arms is the only place where I can truly belong,

and in your arms is where I feel so comfortably numb...

so comfortably numb, I can safely fall asleep here

to where I don't need to be anywhere else tonight.

Since all you want to do to me is to make sweet love

to a fragile body that belongs to me and only me,

I will be yours for an infinite number of lifetimes

and well beyond in the future history of the world.

You found me when I was dying a painful death,

nursed me back to the fullest of all healths;

all before we naturally fell in love, and in time,

what I once was will be no more after long.

You told me your darkest secrets and whatnot,

as I did and much more around the same time

I came back to my senses after my near death...

so now we are definitely made for each other.

I could've realized this feeling sooner rather than now,

but life throws me daggers in which I duck and dodge

to where I get overly sidetracked and lose my way

from where I started to where I am right now.

You and I have come to the center of a circle

of a fate that only brought us closer together,

so when I lay in your arms from now on...

I will always feel so very comfortably numb.

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

I am somewhat torn, but then again... never mind

Let's see here... I know something that most don't, and for that, it's killing me inside. I can't go into further detail as to why I feel that way, but then again, I'll explode if I do... so what does a girl like me to do???????????????? I might as well stay the fuck out of the way, and let things happen all by itself, RIGHT??????????????? I honestly don't know what to do now. I know something that shouldn't be revealed to the public, so I'll just shut up. Other than that... I am in a pretty good mood overall, which translates to the following: "Virginia, if you're happy, then WHY are you torn the way you are??????" Anyhoo, I have to type up a poem (which won't be here on Blogger) to give to my Uncle Allen for his wedding present when I see him during the first weekend in August. I'm sure I'll have a lot of fun, and I'll get away from the chaos in Illinois, so I'll be reflecting when I get back to Illinois after a fun stay in NC for four days. Well, I have to get going now. I have to make sure I get my errands done today before work. I will write again soon, either with another journal entry or a poem. Peace!

Virginia

New poem... "Take it Easy on Me... Please"

Take it Easy on Me... Please

My fragile heart has been broken by him...

and I don't want you to be the next one

that breaks my fragile heart in two... please.

Just take our love slow, don't rush a thing.

We have a lifetime to get what we want in this life.

I could beg for a little family now and regret later,

yet that is not me... it will never be me to beg that way.

I always knew that you were that special someone for me

but I didn't know how I was going to find you at all.

There was a point... in my young life... where I thought

that I wasn't going to find you at all in my lifetime.

Then again, I never gave up in me or in you.

I just wanted to let you know that I love you...

I will always and a day love you, for all life to come...

but my Buddhist ways will never allow me to cave in

to the negativity that always seemed to surround me whole.

I'll do what I can to keep our love strong, and on fire eternally,

but you also have to do what you can to do the same...

so I know in my heart that I was right when I said to you

that you are the one for me, always and forever more.

I will be here, waiting for you for eternity...

I love you, whoever and wherever you are.

Until we meet as soulmates at last...

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

P.S. Here are some pics of me from this year so far. Enjoy them!

New poem (I actually just thought of this one), "The Best Has Yet to Come"

The Best Has Yet to Come

To start this new journey that I created for myself...

I must start over with a new love and a new life.

The beginning to an end that I could no longer bear

to cry over with tears of pain, sorrow, and remorse...

the best of me has yet to come at all.

I am alone in where I go, alone with no proper home,

but my new story is from the bottom of my yearning heart,

yearning to learn even more about me, and possibly you too,

it was never a difficult matter of "what do I do now,"

but a simple matter: "Why me and why now."

I do realize that I will die alone one day in the future,

and there is nothing I can do to prevent my own destiny,

I might as well take the best care of me possible,

and always say to that little evil voice in my head:

the best of me has yet to come at all.

I was in love and I was burned badly to a solid crisp...

but I realize now that that was my past... I must move on,

and move on I did to repair my body as well as my soul.

Although the best of me has yet to come,

I know my soulmate out there will be waiting for me.