Last entry for July

Hello world!

How is Sunday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. This is the last entry for the month so that means that I will be doing entries like crazy for the month of August, also known as next month. :) No pictures or poetry today, but you lot will get some much needed updates! First, the Buddhist meeting today. It was all good although it ran longer than anticipated; and the snacks that was provided were good, even though I had me something to eat before I left the apartment today.

But other than that, I am still getting calls from telemarketers and that is a major pain in the ass. I am also getting calls from a certain ex-boyfriend of mine. NOT A GOOD IDEA THERE, MATE! Whatever the case, I only take calls from people that I can rely on, such as Lenore and my case manager Gregg. Anyhoo, ever since that accident on Dempster near Niles Center Road a few weeks ago, my philosophy on life has changed, but then again, it's always changing. Well, I have to get going now. I will try to write again tomorrow if not Tuesday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Weekend updates (and more pictures)

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How is the weekend treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. I have done some shopping yesterday as I got paid like big time and today I have to get a few more things for the place, mainly contact lens solution and something to sweep the floor with, damn it! I have two things to mail out this weekend and two more things to mail out next weekend, so I should have all of my stuff sent out before the end of August. I have rent due next week, so that shit will certainly suck. I got my pictures back from http://www.eharmony.com, so that is all good.

I also went to http://www.princessmelissa.com today and the creator of the site, Melissa from "The Real World: New Orleans," never ceases to amaze me with her site and shop. So Melissa, if you're reading this entry by some chance, you kick ass! :) But other than that, no word from the ex-boyfriend and the dentist office that I went to to get work done on my teeth are harassing me to pay up. But as I live on my own, it's very hard to pay up the bill when you got other things to get to. I can't wait for my next (and last one for the year) vacation, plus I am expecting my raise next week! :) If the raise doesn't come in next week, then the following week it will come for sure.

I have to go now so that I can get some stuff done. I will report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

TGIF!

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How is Friday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. Today, I got me some MONEY and it is FRIDAY! :) So what did I do today, you ask? I finished the Weapon Master Mode for the first time in SoulCalibur II, only to have to finish it again the second time. I got Berserker as a selectable character, so that's all good. Plus I got more weapons for most of the characters and a costume for Nightmare, and on top of that, I have a new controller, a second memory card, AND a couple of T-shirts from Old Navy... all of that happening after I got some necessities from Jewel Osco.

But other than that, I am doing good. I have to leave the cell phone at home so that certain people won't play the games on it so much if you know what I mean. On top of THAT, I am starting to search for a contract phone for myself so that means that once next year comes around, I will have me a better phone. So far, Cingular and T-Mobile are my front runners in that search. I am expecting something or two in the mail shortly, but I can't say what it is just yet because I don't want the wrong people to find out what it is. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to work on time. I will report again either tomorrow or Sunday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

I'm tired, I'm a bitch... You probably know it by now!

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How is life treating you these days? I hope that all is going well with you lot as it is for me indeed. Well, not really. Yesterday morning, I was peacefully doing my laundry when Rob, all of a sudden, tells me that he was a winner of $1.4 Million. Yeah fucking right! And just when he was telling me exactly what he was going to do with it, I told him to be realistic. Just as I was going to continue my train of thought, Rob was pretty much telling me to forget what he said and that I was a god damn pessimist and that he should've gotten the last Scattered Sites place instead of me. How fucking RUDE!

Anyhoo, I told the right staff member (Gregg) and the relationship between Rob and myself is a lot different now than what it was, thank goodness for that! Same thing between Brad and I, hee hee hee! But other than that, Monday is my pay raise at work and I am getting a dollar more per hour than what I make now, hee hee hee! But what also goes up is my union dues. But who cares about union dues when you have a secure job? Anyway, I am tired and I can become a bitch today if it came down to it. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get home to check my mail and whatnot. I will report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Damn this heat... And more updates!

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How is Monday treating you so far? Well, for me, it's not a good one for starters, because of this damn heat here in the Chicago area of the damn state of Illinois! It was bad enough on this past Saturday that I had to skip the cookout that my job was hosting at the Harms Woods in Skokie (what else did you expect, it was 97 degrees). And to make matters worse, yesterday was WORSE, it was 107 DEGREES outside. There was a cookout at my old residence that day, so I went to that one despite waiting almost an hour for the 97 CTA Bus! Do you think I like that at all? Hell NO! Today was about 99 degrees, so talk about hot ass weather over the past few days!

But other than that, I am doing okay. I have to go to work tonight and face the music. My co-workers are probably going to ask me why I didn't go to the cookout. I will just let them have it with the weather as the culprit for me not going. There is NO WAY that I am going to a cookout in near 100 degree weather. NO WAY! And oh yeah, Brad and I are not talking as of now. The last part of the note that he gave me (which was later destroyed) asked me to give the so-called friendship that we had another chance. Hmmm... Let's consider the evidence... He took advantage of me when it comes down to the presents that I have bought him in the past, he has feelings for other girls, AND he was (supposedly) at Laura Phillips' apartment while being involved with me!

Do you think I'd take that lightly? NO! I feel like I am being used here, if that's what you're asking me to do here! I'm going to go now so that I can get to other things in my life and I have to get to work on time. I will try to report again tomorrow with other updates and whatnot in my life. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Weekend Madness!

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How is Saturday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me indeed. First of all, friggin' http://www.eharmony.com reopened my account when the pictures were sent to them (dumb me, as always) and posted them into my account. I was really gung ho on http://www.match.com, but you know me better than that! Well, onto the weekend updates, as usual. I might go to the barbecue today that my damn job is doing at the Harms Woods, but as it'll be fucking 97 degrees outside as the high, I don't even know if I'll go to it!

I am definitely going to the Scattered Sites cookout tomorrow, even though it'll be like 100 degrees outside that day. That I have to go to because it's part of my goals and whatnot. Now onto what happened yesterday. I was at Church Street due to a important errand that I had to do, and Gregg was there. I saw my former roommates, even my ex, and my boy Ray has his teeth! :) My ex gave me a note that he had written himself, but with his handwriting on top of the fact that I was still pissed at him for the Laura incident, I declined to read it.

So what did I do? I was waiting for the 422 Pace bus to get to work, and once I got on the bus, I saw my boy Mike Timko. I asked him if he could destroy the note after he read it. He agreed to it after I gave him a small amount of money to do so. Well, that was a big success to go through, hee hee hee! I just can't tell the ex what I did with the note so that means that I have to become and go incognito with the damn thing. Oh well, that's life there for you. I have to get going now so that I can make my final decision on the cookout for today. I will try to report again on Monday or Tuesday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Finally, updates for the week!

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Thank God It's Friday! So how is everyone's day treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. And yes, it's about time for me to give you lot updates for this week. First of all, this past Tuesday, I got stung in the FACE, near the left eye, by a bee. Lucky for me, I don't have an allergy that I know about so I am one lucky gal. No swelling and whatnot, so I am even more lucky than ever before. This week in general has been tiring because although I am getting more hours I am more frustrated than ever due to a shitty supervisor that I have, a fear that my hours are being taken away, and the feeling that I want to quit my job to get another one.

Wednesday... I was doing my stuff to get ready for the week, registered for next quarter at my day program, and went grocery shopping. After I checked out, I realized that Marc, a friend of mine, had taken my gallon of skim milk (a part of my stuff was checked out along with his and that is how I know)! Yesterday was boring as shit so I can't report anything there. Now last night is something that I am a little angry about. My ex Brad Schantz called me at 11 at night, just as I got home from work. BAD MOVE THERE, ACE! NO ONE CALLS ME AFTER 10:30 p.m.! I told him about my plans, so it was a really bad move he did.

Today... how can I put it... was rather interesting. Before Brad called, my case manager Gregg called me and said that I needed to be back at the old residence to get a piece of paper and sign something. I called him this morning to set time to do so. After that, I was chatting with my boy Ray and Rob... OMG... was annoying as shit. Don't like that cat. Brad gave me a note, before I left to get to this site, which I'll most likely burn after I read it later on today. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to other things in my life as I know it. I will report sometime this weekend. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

P.S. Let me know what you think of my poetry and my pictures. I'd love to hear from you!

More poetry!

The Most Painful Goodbye

How can I live with a dying pain

that I know will kill me fully?

Perhaps I left too late or too soon

to figure out what is the matter with me.

I must find the real reason why...

why I am about to actually die...

but I guess I already know it all...

maybe I think I know too much...

especially when I know of my death.

Dying this painful death I'm suffering,

it is something that I deserve,

of all things.

Perhaps my good deeds were too late...

or those very deeds were too soon.

This is my final goodbye to all of you,

as my time has come to go to a better place.

I will never worry of my future anymore...

I will no longer fear death itself

as I,

of all people,

am about to die...

yet I know this goodbye will be painful

for everyone that I know until today...

I know in my heart that I must go...

and leave everything else behind,

so that I can be of full peace

within and around my real self...

Sometimes this most painful goodbye

that is ever said by anyone...

is the goodbye never said at all.

Finally, some poetry!

The Rise and Fall of a Rogers Park Freak Show

Let me introduce myself to you:
I am known only as the one-woman
Rogers Park Freak Show;
I hail from Rogers Park of Chicago,
land of the bonafide freaks...
well...
not freaks,
but chaos-instilled,
bootylicious seeking thrillseekers.
I cannot tell you my real name,
because if I do tell you what it is,
I am prone...
to the very appetites
for what is known as destruction.
Therefore, my rise to fame was hard,
while my fall from fame was quick.
I was only seven
and my parents had to split,
because of me I don't have a clue
if I was to blame for it.
I highly doubt I ever was the cause.
Trust me, however, there's more...
Fast forward seven years
from the youthful age of seven...
My calling as a freak show came,
and he was 17...
BIG MISTAKE!
That's how I became as such...
My downfall...
two years ago...
I was without what is called a home.
I messed up for once, and only 21.
My mess up almost costed me
the most irreplaceable thing:
my life.
It's something I'd rather not
talk about to anyone ever again.
That's how I made my rise
and fall in less than 10 years,
which can be a pain in the ass.
My life now is what everyone
would call rather interesting.
because I am whole once more.
I am 23 years old as of now,
I still have my job,
a new home,
all of which I call my own,
and it's only a matter of time
before my comeback,
as the one-woman Rogers Park Freak Show
will be complete.

More pictures (Try to spot me!)

Top Picture: I am the one in the green Ireland jersey. That was at my 23rd birthday party this past January 22.

Middle picture: My ex-boyfriend Brad is on the right in this picture with his roommate D.C. I took this picture while us three and the others were at the Wisconsin Dells this past May.

Bottom picture: I am the one on the left of this one. This one is D.C. and myself at the same party as the top picture. And yes, I had me a good time at my own party even though a few people showed up.

THANK GOODNESS IT IS FRIDAY!

Hello world!

How is Friday treating you? I hope that all is going well with you although it isn't quite the same with me. First of all, I do wonder why when you try with the online dating stuff, you can't promote your webpage on there without the matching site closing your account, especially if the webpage is clean. It really sucks to hell. Oh well, their loss! I really didn't like them anyway. I can't get any money out of my account (I overwithdrew a week ago, but I knew I had that one coming) for a couple of weeks. But who cares when you have enough food and whatnot for a week, you know what I mean?

But other than that, I hope that my webpage here can help me find love in all the right places because dating sites can be a pain in the ass! I get my deposit advice tonight at work so that I can do some math, hee hee hee! The top picture is me at the Blue Man Group in Chicago back in April of this year. After I am done uploading some other pictures into another post, I will let you know who is who in those pictures. No Brad, no eHarmony, thank you! I am well thank you very much. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to the American Storm website. I will report again either on Saturday or Sunday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Some pictures (the top one is me and the bottom one is one thing you'll find at my apartment)

No poetry yet, but here are some updates while you're reading!

Hello world!

How is Thursday treating you so far? I hope all is going good for you as it is for me! Well, I am still on my investigation for a good martial arts school for the best price, which is getting harder and harder at the very moment. I just signed up at http://www.eharmony.com to give online dating another go. I might as well try it out since I see those commercials all the damn time and trying to convince every last single person on earth!

Other than that, I am doing good, mainly keeping myself busy and staying away from Brad Schantz. There is a saying that while the cat's away, the mouse will play. I think that's what happened with the relationship that Brad and I had while we were together. I was away from him by planning my weekends a lot and for most of the time, and Brad might have been getting it on with Laura Phillips. Not sexually speaking, but those two getting together in general. So therefore, I have to avoid those two people for a short time until I can get myself together.

In other news, I hardly got out of work in time to catch the bus last night so that means that I have to make sure that I am out of the hub (I work at UPS five nights a week) at ten at night every night so that I can catch the damn bus! I have been working unusually longer hours this time of the year. Not a good sign for me to watch out for! But at least I am making a lot of money for the most part. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get back home to get the photo album to post some pictures on that website that I was talking about. I will report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

The latest

Hello world!

How is Tuesday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. Still no poetry from me, eh? It is coming soon, because today I decided to just to bring myself to this computer as I am freaking tired from work last night! Speaking of last night, I decided to bring some Kiwi Gummies and Fortune Cookies from the Toguri Co. Shop on Belmont Street in Chicago for the guys in the sort aisle. I still have that frame in my room, so that is all good. Man, did they go through the bags like animals! My boy Andre Blackwell said that the gummies were addictive. And you know what? He's right.

As for anything else, yes I am still tired as I type this entry out but I will get through this like you lot wouldn't believe. I am single still, yes, but I am looking for love, just not on the Internet or on any dating service like I used to when I was 18-20. I am 23 and I want to look for love in all of the right places and not in the wrong places, and Abraham Bradley Schantz, if you're reading this online journal, I only want to be friends with you due to Miss Laura Phillips and what you did with her, and therefore, that's all I want to say to you single men, from 24-28, out there.

Since I am tired, I will stop my ranting here. I will report again on Thursday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

What a friggin' DRAG!

Hello world!

How is Monday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me indeed, as for one, I had a good night's sleep last night. As for any updates, I don't have much but hey, it's better than nothing at all. First of all, I have to check out some of these sites that I found in the Poets and Writers magazine that I found so that I can enter them and make myself heard on the writing scene once more instead of what I normally enter as of late. It should be rather interesting to see what will go down in terms of what they want in their works.

But other than that, I am doing good, no real qualms or anything like that for me. I have a Barbecue that I want to go to on the 23rd of this month but I am not sure if I'll be able to go to it at all due to where I live, how I am getting there and back, not to forget how long I'll be staying if I do go to the barbecue. And another thing about that: it's for my job. So Joe Ramirez, the good guy that he is, put me down as a maybe for the damn thing. I might go; but then again I just might NOT go, it's my final decision to make here by next week, but there is a good chance that I'll go to it. Well I have to get going now so that I can get to other things. I will report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

P.S. I am on the far right in this picture.

The absolute latest from ME!

Hello world!

I am hoping that this weekend will be treating you good as it did for me so far. Yesterday is a grand example of what I am talking about. Now where do I start is probably what you're asking me (or me asking myself that)! First, I got up early enough so that I can go to the Wushu school in Evanston. I was a little late but that was okay as the class started after I came in. I first met Amber, the nice lady that was responding to my e-mails that works at the school. Then, I was introduced to Master Anthony Marquez, who runs the school. They allowed me to sit in on the class that day and I was blown away. I also met a couple of the students, Mike and Rachel. Those two are absolute sweethearts. I will probably go to that school due to my time table, but we will see.

I got more information in regards of the Tai Chi school near the building I live in and the only class they have available for me is the Saturday afternoon Ba Kua class. Now I need more time to train in the class than that. I should know, I was in Tae Kwon Do for a month, and I was there almost everyday of my time there. I didn't lose or gain anything there, so I am looking for something better than what I've been previously trained in. But oh well, that's life there for you. My investigation for a good martial arts school is nowhere near complete because of it, but it'll be over before you know it. Therefore, I am doing what my caseworker Gregg is telling me because I don't want to get into something really expensive.

Now before I got to the Wushu school, I was in the city for a short time, at the Toguri Store on Belmont near Clark. I bought myself a frame that has the Asian symbol meaning Dog, as in the Year of the Dog, according to Asian Astrology (I was born in 1982, even though I am technically a Rooster due to my birthday) and stuff about the dog. I also bought Kiwi Gummies (thanks Jennifer for introducing me to them seven years ago) and Fortune Cookies (a six ounce bag) and paid in cash. After the visit to the Wushu school, I went to Barnes and Noble and then Borders to see what they have. Borders had some poetry stuff that I bought like right away. That was my day yesterday.

Didn't do much today so...Therefore I have to get going now so that I can get home and whatnot. I will report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Update central!

Hello world!

How is Thursday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. I got some e-mail from my girl Niya and that is all good. I know, I know: "Where's your damn poetry?" Well, the answer to that is this: I always keep forgetting my poem book, which has my work, not to forget that I have a poem book that is in the works of being completed, in other words, the latter book is being worked on. That's how come I have yet to post my poetry on the web. But it will come soon, I will guarantee you lot with that much information!

I am going to the Wushu school on Saturday at noon to check it out AND to see where I am going to go to train to get in shape. I have to make some other calls to other schools to see where they are plus how much will it cost to train someone like me. But other than that, I am doing swell. I was watching "Kept" on VH1 and take a wild guess who got eliminated???? The only hint I am giving out is that two got eliminated in one hour. I can't tell you which two got eliminated, but it was a lot of fun to watch.

The only thing that I have to look out for is the latest episode of "Strip Search" on VH1 sometime tonight or later on today if I can catch it before work! And as I have said in the past, is it HOT in here or is it just me, because those men are FINE! I only hope and pray that the right men are picked for those spots, because if certain guys are still there that I cannot stand (they know who they are), I will be pissed off! Well, that is all in my world for today. If I do not write again tomorrow or Saturday, I will talk for sure on Sunday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

First entry for July

Hello world!

How was the Fourth of July weekend? I hope that it went down smoothly for you as it was for me. First and foremost, the house warming party. It was a success (considering the size of my apartment), as Amy, Genevieve, Hiroko, and my girl Niya all showed up for the party. We all watched movies, ate some food, and had a great time. Genevieve and Amy gave me something for the apartment as well, so that is all good for me right there. Genevieve gave me a couple of postcards and a keychain plus Amy gave me a plant, so I have to send them a thank you e-mail as soon as I am done with this post. I might make the house warming party an annual event, so that people can meet others from my walks of life.

As for other news, things are going pretty good for me for the most part. I am really tired but hey, it's all worth it. I was at the Taste of Chicago this weekend as well as Chinatown, both in Chicago, and I had me a lot of fun, as I was letting go the whole time. I was this close to buying an issue of Playgirl magazine but I didn't, and I will NOT buy the new Missy Elliot album until next month so that I can catch up with my finances. I just hope and pray that I have enough money for all that I want to do in the future. I might go to Williamsburg in November of this year, but if not, I can wait until next year. I have to get going now so that I can get to other things in my life. I will report again on Thursday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix