New poem, "Razor's Edge"

Razor's Edge

Its sharp edges finally made its way

inside my young and frail being,

now that I made the huge mistake

of not going home when I was supposed to,

and my death is what becomes of it...

so I must pay the ultimate price

for being myself and no one else...

I'd rather be that way than to pretend

to be something that I am not...

in order to save myself from what

I call a much early fate of my own,

I have to figure out who I am to me,

and to not let you get the best of me

and every part of my whole being.

Oh yeah... if I do die on this day,

at least... I will finally know why,

and I will no longer hide from death,

so don't remind me of my disease,

because I am already sick inside

as well as being sick on the outside,

and death can be my way out...

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

New poem, "Criminal"

Criminal

I am known only as the criminal,

over the top and so goddamn cynical,

I'd rather be known only as minimal.

Only if I wasn't such a criminal

I would be so much more than minimal

and I hope I'm not the stereotypical

creation of what God sees as typical.

Maybe I hope for the best but not all,

the only thing htat I really want,

more than anything else that I'd want,

is something that's not stereotypical,

and what I want is peace, and now.

I'm in the now, that is for sure,

and hell is bound to come my way.

This story might sound autobiographical,

and something far from stereotypical,

but it's true and young and a free for all.

Judging this and that for minimal,

because I am only a criminal...

so over the top and so damn cynical,

and known only as just the minimal.

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

New poem, "A Part of Me"

A Part of Me

A part of me is now with you...

while the other part of me is buried

much too deep inside my heart.

Since I've know you for the longest,

I'm slowly falling in love with you

twenty-four hours per passing day.

So I am faced with a decision

to either be a part of you at all...

or to leave you and then be alone

with whatever it is I have got left.

Now that you stole a piece of me,

I can no longer bear your presence

and if I were a much different person,

now a part of me is against you

for your crimes against humanity.

A part of me is now confused

as to what to do with you now,

while another part of who I am

is actually through with you.

I now have some thinking to do...

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

Poem, "Do You Really Know Me?"

Do You Really Know Me?

You say you know everything about me,

but my question to you remains:

do you really know me at all, or no,

because you assumed far too much

about me before you got to know me.

Perhaps you were too late when

I was younger, you ignored me totally,

but now you're in my face all the time.

So you are much and far too late.

I am happy that you're not my lover,

if you were my lover then I'd leave you

much faster than a single heartbeat,

because I know one thing about you:

you cheat on all of your lovers...

so take this as kindly as possible:

I do not want you, now or ever,

not in my heart, and not in my life.

All that I know for sure is that in case

you don't take this so-called request

like the man that you should be,

then I don't want you to be a part of me.

This poem is for Eugene Raytman.

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

Poem, "No One Knows It"

No One Knows It

I can't leave you but I can't stay...

yet no one knows it all but me and my heart,

because I just can't love you like

I used to when we were young...

in fact, I found someone else to love.

I can't love anyone else but him,

he is even better as a lover and friend,

so no one knows this secret but me.

I'd rather be alone to think about this,

which will mean of our demise

for sure in this short lifetime.

I write my heart out and I bleed,

because you're the reason why I leave

and he is the reason why I stay...

well, at least here on earth...

and no one knows it but me.

I can't open myself up quite yet

because of my past with you...

to be honest with all of you...

I'd rather let no one know of this.

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

"So Close, Yet So Far Away (2005)"

So Close, Yet So Far Away (2005)

I'm begging you to take my hand,

as I can't bear to lose you for good...

because I lost you to jealousy once,

and I've come so close to getting you back,

so I don't want to end it so far away...

I want you near me to chase down the monsters

that drives us away from each other.

I must admit my unending love for you,

all in the name of what I feel is the truth

and what I see is the beauty of it all.

I sometimes cry myself to sleep...

all because you're not by my side;

so I wonder what must I do now

to save myself from a lifetime

of loneliness that is bound to come

my way, as well as your way too.

Therefore, we are so close to what we need,

which really is each other in life;

but we almost always end up

so far away from our goals in life,

and I don't want this love to be one of them.

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

The Ultimate Seduction (2005)

The Ultimate Seduction (2005)

I know just what I want and need,

and you are definitely the one

that will satisfy all of my needs

as well as all of my desires,

but since you're not by my side,

there's nothing I can do or even be

other than the ultimate seduction.

But perhaps there's a slight chance

for you and I to unite as one being.

Even though it might or might not be so,

you know that I'm madly in love

with what is madly known as you.

And even with that in the brain,

it only has driven me insane.

However, as the ultimate seduction,

I must admit my love for you

in honesty and from my heart

before I die and then rot in hell.

So... Although it' s not do or die,

I know it's something I must confess

to you and to all that is around us.

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

New poetry, "As Your Lover"

As Your Lover

I know in my heart I am immortalized,

but as your lover I'll never be,

so coming as I am I suddenly realize

I am human...

and I always will be.

As your lover I'll see the light

when you start seeing the dark,

and when people see you wrong when you're right,

I promise to be the home of your heart.

Knowing your spirit and mine alone,

we can tackle everything on earth,

and in heaven we'll never be in stone.

So...

as your lover, I am always here

to set your soul free from hell's wrath,

and as our two skins combine like sheer

silk and goes onto the unbeaten path,

you know that to you I'll be near,

and to me you'll run my bath

water while we are both in the nude

As your lover I want to make

true love to what I see as you,

but I know you'll beat me to that.

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

Too tired, too pissed off, you know the drill...

Hello world!

How is the start of the weekend treating you? I hope that all is going well with you as it's not the case for me. You see, I am having my dark days now due to the move back in April of this year. I can't pay off my damn debt as my bank is playing games with my money, and that's not the end of it. I have to find a way to get more minutes on my cell phone without using the "plastic" that I own, which makes it more difficult for me to maintain the cell phone. So that is how I am having my dark days as of right now.

On top of that I got told off for doing the right thing at work last night! Here's what happened, in full detail: where I work at, there are belts for me to put things on. There are eight moving belts total. Three of them, which are the major belts were turned off. I had to cut the guy that was giving me my work because I KNEW that if the work was still coming when the belts were off, that means even more time and work for people like me. I know I can't stay there past a certain time due to the fact that I have to take the bus!

Someone from management said that I have to keep on working no matter what. Now how the hell was I supposed to keep on working when almost half the building was off? You call that working safely? Answer me that one if you may! I very strongly believe that you have to get the work done right the first time so that you can save time and money. The management is starting to a) get on my last nerve, and b) getting less wise to figure out to get the job done right without paying the staff accordingly.

Well, that is enough of my ranting for today. I will try to report again sometime this weekend. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Life is good!

Hello world!

How is life treating you today so far? So far, for me anyway, is all good. Why did I say that, you might ask? All because my bathtub got fixed today, after days of it leaking and causing hell to my friend and neighbor in the apartment below me (I live on the third floor of the building in case you're wondering). I knew that after she showed me the problem there was something wrong in my bathroom, but I didn't know what it was that was causing the problem in her apartment. So it's a good thing that my troubles got fixed as well as my friend's troubles, because if it were to continue, then I'd be in serious trouble!

But other than that, I am seriously considering promotion at my job and that means that I would get more money per month, however, I'd be losing my union protection at the same time, however. Therefore, I have to take the good with the bad. Speaking of taking the good with the bad, I am in yet another debt counseling program so that would mean I am on a budget once again, but that is good because I need to stop my spending habits. However, had I not moved into my apartment at all, I would be in the same one that I was in before, but like I said earlier, you have to take the good with the bad.

On to other things in my life! My girl Rya is back at my job and she is somewhat pressuring me to get a boyfriend, but as I am: a) 23 years old, b)too single to care about a thing, and c) in no rush to get one at this time, why should I go with the flow when I can be me? Yeah, I will admit that relationships do make people happy, but I need to figure out who I am, what I want in my life, and what I need before I even try to care and do things for someone else, let alone be with someone, especially like certain guys that I know are good looking but are too attainable. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to other things in my life. I will try to write again later on this week with more updates. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Weekend updates for September...

Hello world!

How is everyone doing (or faring) this weekend so far? I hope that all is well with you as it is for me, as a friend of mine is getting married (I won't say who, however) and as I am happy for this person, I will be chanting and praying for a safe and happy wedding at my apartment. I just did my laundry and I am hoping that my beloved Chicago White Sox will pull themselves together and win their division this month so that they can win the World Series in MLB. I thought that the Chicago Cubs would do a surprise run, but as they suck and aren't doing as well, I am going for the White Sox.

But other than that, I am doing good, despite the fact that I got way too much sleep, so I am a bit tired. I also left my cell phone on last night but I only lost one fourth of my cell phone's energy, so I am not having any qualms about that. I got a 20-hour week from my job (including the Labor Day pay that I get), so I am happy about that too! I will most likely go into management at my job so that would mean that I have to say goodbye to my hourly position at the job. There is a guy at my job that is not only a sweet guy, but he looks good too! That is all that I will say on that topic because I have to get going now. I will try to report again tomorrow if not Monday or Tuesday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

I might have a change of heart...

Hello world!

How is this week treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. As the title says, I might have a change of heart in terms of my job, as I probably will stay at my current job, for the reason that I most likely will go for promotion to management there. Then again, you never know what is going to happen to me if I choose to go for a full-time job either in the city or in the nearby suburbs. So, to Tina and to my loyal readers, stay tuned for more info!

As for anything else that is going on in my life, I am doing alright because at least I had a decent bus ride home last night, despite the rain before I left my shift for the night. So therefore, I am doing good overall. The same people are annoying the living shit out of me so that would mean that I am about ready to beat their asses to hell! My love life is still the same: single and loving it to death!

Oh yeah, I need to tell you lot something. I was kicked out of a debt counseling program recently due to me moving and whatnot. But you know what, I am back with a new, more reputable program, so that I can get out of debt faster. So that is my latest in terms of my updates. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to my job before 5:30 tonight. I will try to report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Even more updates!

Hello world!

How is life treating you today? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me indeed, because... I think I might go into management, but not until next year due to the fact that all of the spots for management is taken right now and I may have to wait until next year when another spot is available for me to take up. So Tina, you may have to wait awhile for my decision to see if I will go into management if you ever read this. So there you have it, my decision to stay at my current job for the time being. Then again, you never know what I might do to my job situation...

On to other things in my life! I saw this movie, "Broken Flowers," the one with Bill Murray, and it was strange as hell, mainly because the plot didn't make any sense at all, not to forget that it wasn't even funny! Lucky for me, I was at the bus stop on time after I have gotten my backpack back from my old residence after the movie was over with. Now here is the messed up part: after I got to the bus stop from my old residence, I had to wait over 30 minutes for the bus to get to work, as the first bus broke down before the one I saw came along.

But other than that, I am still tired and a bit hurt, as my back was murdering me last night while I was on the clock. That's what I get for getting all of the heavy trailers last night. Next time, I should get all the light trailers as I don't think I can take it anymore. Well, I have to get going now. I have to get to other things in my life right now. I will try to report again tomorrow, if not Friday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

This might not be a good week for me, but who cares anyway?

Hello world!

How is the other half of Labor Day weekend treating you? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. Well, nowhere near as good. I'm on my time of the month, so ladies you can feel me on this one, and I freaking overslept this morning, as I got up like a couple of hours ago after going to bed at like 8:30 last night and getting up at around 2:15 this morning. I was supposed to go to a Buddhist meeting in the city to support a friend of mine, but as I said before, I just overslept. NOT A GOOD IDEA!

Anyway, I bought some new CDs as of Friday and they are GOOD, and that is when I know I should have bought some necessities with the cash too, but who cares?!? I am in a new debt counseling program and it's better than the other one that I got kicked out of, as...Well, I cannot go into great detail about that one right now. As for anymore pictures, I have yet to develop one of my disposable cameras but I do that based on groups of three disposable cameras at a damn time! Now that's what I call a better idea!

On to other things in my life as of now! I might go after the supervisor position after all at my current job but you never know what I might do assuming that I get a full time job. Well, this is the time that I have to go for the time being. I will try to report again on Tuesday as I won't be around for Labor Day itself. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Heading to the crossroads...

Hello world!

How is the long weekend treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. Since I last talked to you lot, I saw an old friend of mine at my current job: Tina Cumberlander. The conversation that we had was rather interesting because as I am looking for a better paying job, Tina told me that I should consider moving on up in my current job and leave the search behind. That is how I managed to get the title of this entry today...After doing my laundry and listening to some of my new tunes that I bought yesterday.

As I am the type that doesn't like to stay at one place for a very long time, I want to move on. However, as virtually no one wants to hire me as a full-time worker, I may have no other choice but to take the management position on and have an even better looking resume on me. So I have a choice to make here: either move up in the company or leave the company when the full-time job is landed upon. I have no other news to report to you, so I will get going now. I will try to report again tomorrow and/or Tuesday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

September is here!

Hello world!

How is Thursday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me indeed. I have found a few more leads in my search for a full-time job and I faxed my resume to a few companies, but no luck as of yet since the shitty interview a couple of Tuesdays ago, but as I said before, I can't give up quite yet. Oh well, that's life there for you. Then again, life can treat me well if I play my cards right and continue to go after certain jobs in the city or the nearby suburbs. The only thing I can really do is to chant and pray to the Gohonzon about my problems finding a full-time job.

Onto other things in my life! I went shopping for food yesterday and I was using the remainder balance on two of the cards to lower the cost so that I can get a higher remaining balance on the third card. I got some interesting stuff like some salad, ice cream, Gatorade, milk, more baking soda for the fridge and freezer, ranch dressing, a whole chicken, among other things. And my love life is still the same, no boyfriend, no problem! :) Like I said earlier in this entry, I have to learn how to play my cards right so that I can find me a REAL MAN and not what I have dated in the past, hee hee hee. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to other things in my life. I will try to report again this weekend. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

No luck yet, but I'm not giving up...

Hello world!

How is Tuesday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. I have applied to a store in Glenview today and I might not get it due to that credit act that employers do that freaking Bush passed not too long ago. So I am not happy about that, but I am hopeful that I will land me a job soon. I just hope that I don't get the job in Glenview as it requires me to do weekend work. It will be very hard for me to get to on the weekends, especially on fucking Sunday... But who can you blame for the look for a full time job...

But other than that, I am doing good. My five year anniversary with my current job is approaching rather quick and soon, and I personally hope that I don't make it that far or longer as I cannot take the people that work there anymore. I have yet to get any calls from prospective employers as I might be too late or too soon or something like that, but I refuse to be negative on my job search, AS I WILL FIND ME A FULL-TIME JOB soon! Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to other things in my life. I will try to report again soon. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

What might be the last entry of the month...

Hello world!

How is the weekend treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you lot as it is for me... Well, not really the case for me. I am still looking for a full time job and that is that, but I have to call someone back tomorrow so that I can set up an interview for a full-time job. I just hope, wish, and pray that I find it soon. I don't care where I work, just as long as I get to the job and back very easily and rather safely. I also pray that I get some decent pay for it too, because I refuse to settle for less than the best!

On to other things in my life! Well, there was the Buddhist meeting this morning and it was great because there was the food after the meeting and the meeting itself. I have to find a way to get my hands on that review for October's meeting. So that is how I got here today. Oh yeah, that J.D. from "Rock Star: INXS" looks so freaking HOT, and he is a Canadian too! I might be only a quarter Canadian (because I am mostly Irish), but who cares?!? Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to other things in my life. I will try to report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

More updates!

Hello world!

How is Friday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me indeed, as I have bailed out my friend Linda today. Let's hope that all goes well with her situation as time begins to fly before our eyes. But other than that, I have laundry to do tomorrow so that I can get ready for my Buddhist meeting on Sunday. I also have to get some medicine tomorrow as well so that I can continue to get well. I am also on the lookout for a full-time job, as my current job isn't doing me justice anymore. I just need me a 40+ hour work week.

As for my love life, Miss Laura Phillips is putting her nose where it doesn't belong again, although Brad and I are friends again, I personally think she's after him as a boy toy, I am irritated by that, so if you're reading this Laura, buzz off of my business! My friend is back at work since last week (or this week), which is good, as I was scared shitless about him. Work last night was alright, but it could have been better, so I am having no qualms about that. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to work early. I will try to report again this weekend if not that period of time, then Monday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Weekly updates!

Hello world!

How is life treating you these days? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me... Well, not really. Yesterday was my interview for a job in Wilmette and it SUCKED! It wasn't all of me that sucked, it was them. In some ways they misled me in their ad, but I should've looked better (not dress code, but looking for a job wise) than that. I have to go to a store in Morton Grove tomorrow for an application and to the city on Saturday for another. I also have to call this one guy back for a third job possibility today as well, which brings me to think and know that I need a better job BAD!

Well, on to other things! My love life took a hit as I was checking my e-mail and some way older guy (Don't know his real name or anything) winked at me from the http://www.match.com website. A few words for him: I AM NOT INTERESTED, I am only 23! But other than that, I am doing good. I have to check out the http://www.chicagoreader.com website as well as the http://www.pioneerlocal.com website tomorrow for the updated position openings. I may have to say goodbye to school forever, as I need to make some money to survive out here in the 'burbs. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to other things in my life. I will try to report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

"Wicked" updates!

Hello world!

How is Sunday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me indeed. As of this past Friday, I decided to go to to the city yesterday to see the musical "Wicked," with WilPower, and it was indeed WICKED! :) I loved it so much that I both laughed and cried during the show! That's how good it was. I also had some good company with me, as I mentioned before in this entry. After the show we all were treated to dinner at Seafood Buffet in Evanston, and the food there was alright, but it could have been better (the food, that is). I almost got literally sick! Oh well, that's life there for you.

On to other updates! Yesterday, before the musical, Brad (I'm friendly with him again, so please don't ask questions) gave me a lead for full time work: the place where he works at (I can't say where though), it's fairly easy to get to (two buses to Morton Grove shouldn't be a problem), so I'll be there on Tuesday to fill out an application and possibly an interview. But other than that, I am doing just fine, thank you very much. I went out of my way to fax some places my resume and references so I should get some interview offers pretty soon. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get my e-mail thing done. I will try to report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

No full time job yet, so it looks like...

Hello world!

How is Tuesday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me... Well, not really that well. I have yet to land a full time job, but I can't give up quite yet, but it looks like I will be celebrating a dreaded five-year anniversary with my current job. I have to look better for a job so that means not only do I have to look harder for a full-time job, but I have to sell myself better for that full-time job. And by the way, I do have a lot of experience with some things within the workforce, just not enough for some of what some employers are looking for.

On to other things! I have the two Gatorades in my freezer to give to friends of mine so that they can experience what I drink all the time. I can't say who is getting what at this time but all I can say is that they are getting what they were asking for. I have found some more leads in terms of what to look for in a full time job, but I have to stop procrastinating and start calling them to try to get the job! Here is the thing: I have to leave my current job so that I can get on the road to financial freedom. Then again, some jobs are more worth it than others, so there!

Anyway, I am happy being single. Some of the guys at my current job are like that I should find someone to be happy with, but I find that dead wrong, because I find that when I am with someone, I am dead miserable, and that is not good in anyone's book! My friend is doing alright, but he needs his recovery time and that is extremely important. I can't go into further detail than that, but I can say that I no longer have any romantic interest in him. I only see him as a friend of mine and that is that! Well, I have to get going now so that I can get ready for possible job interviews (Well, that is getting my stuff out there to the right people). I will report again later on this week. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Shopping sprees and whatnot, plus more updates

Hello world!

How is Sunday treating you so far? I am having a blast, considering I have gone on a proper shopping spree over the past three days, almost all of it on needed clothes. I have to get some more but I have to make sure that my money is put to good use and whatnot. I have applied to three jobs in less than a week and so far, I am getting some responses in a couple of weeks, due to the fact that I have the skills to pay the bills and whatnot. I have to make some calls this week so that I can get closer to the full-time job that I want in my life right now.

On to other news! More and more people I know are getting married soon, and that is good on them; better for me, because I am single, loving every minute of it, and I do NOT want or need a boyfriend at this time. I will get me some when I least expect it. But other than that, I am doing good at this time, because when I get the full time job, I will let other people at my current job know what is going on and that will mean that I have to say goodbye to what I had, but that is okay. Well, I have to get going now. I will report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Time for the weekend!

Hello world!

How is the start of the weekend treating you so far? I hope that all is going well for you as it is for me indeed. I have gotten me some clothes for interviews in the near future at Lane Bryant, which is good, plus some music for me to listen to on the road. On top of that, I took out some money from my bank account to get some things for myself, including a new bus pass and possibly some medication. I have to give a prospective full time job a call today and visit another in the city tomorrow, both of which if possible.

People don't want me to leave my current job as I have a good future there, but I can't do physical labor for the rest of my life. It's starting to really hurt my back and I'm getting a lot of bruises all over my body. That I just cannot take anymore. Plus there are people there that pick on me, so therefore, I have to leave the job and take whatever is out there, hopefully in the city, but I'll take the suburbs too if it's close enough. But whatever the case, I am out of UPS for good as soon as I find that full time job.

Anyhoo, I am worried shitless, as a friend of mine at work... Well, I can't say exactly what happened last night, because I am too scared to type it out. All that I CAN say is that I hope that he recovers and does well when he returns. I will be praying for him and chant for his recovery. Well, I have to get going now, as I have to make some revisions to my references page, which is on disk. I will report again sometime this weekend. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

I'm still a bit ill and more updates!

Hello world!

How is Thursday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. I am still in the search of a full-time job to knock out the part-time job that I currently have, and I have two more leads to full-time work. I have to send out my resume out to prospective companies and get a decent paying entry level job with benefits (not much to ask for, eh?), so the search is indeed on! I will be going to the vet hospital in the city on Saturday so that I can fill out an application for the receptionist job that they have opened up there. I can get there easily but hey, they may have that spot taken by the time I get there.

But other than that, I am doing good. I saw the doc today and told him just about everything that was up with me as of late, and I see him again next month, so that is all good. I am still a bit sick physically, but hey, you have to take the good with the bad. I am still searching for a contract phone, and Cingular Wireless is the front runner for my search, but I am far from done with that search, as well as the search with the full time job hunt. My love life is still the same bullshit, only this time it's getting to the point where I am not interested in meeting guys anymore, I am thrown into the mess of looking for this and looking for that.

Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to work on time. I will try to report again sometime this weekend. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Updates!

Hello world!

How is Wednesday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. First and foremost, I talked to Gregg regarding my job situation. He said that I am going through a phase in my career, but I am dead serious in terms of knowing what I want in my life. UPS is no longer my type of work that I want to retire from when I get older. I'd rather be in school going for a teaching gig than work at UPS. Oh well, that's life there for you, the search is on for a full-time job!

Now onto other news. I was shopping for food today at Sam's Club instead of Dominick's today, because of circumstances beyond my control. But I did get me some good food! I can't say exactly what I got but hey, it's all good to me! I have to get some more stuff at Dominick's either next week on Wednesday or this upcoming Friday. Damn, this weather is HOT, and that is NOT good on any terms! As I said earlier in this entry, oh well, that's life there for you. I have to get going now so that I can get to work on time. I will try to report again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

I am not feeling that well, but I am writing anyway!

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How is the weekend treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me, although I am SICK (literally)! I am down with probably the cold and that sucks ass straight to hell, and it might be from the changing weather. I just wish it would stay consistent, damn it! Since I last wrote, I was picked on at work by two people that should get their asses beat up by me, of all the people in the world! After work, I couldn't take it anymore and I just broke down. I have to quit my job soon or else it might not be pretty anymore.

I told some co-workers what was going on and they just gave me some cold hard advice: kill hate with kindness. I know for a fact that sometimes it works and sometimes it does not. Vicky and Mike, two of the people that I am pretty close with, had private conversations with me both Thursday and yesterday. The talks proved to me that I got people at that job that has my back. :) Enough on that, on to the good parts of my happenings. Yesterday, I went to my day program and told some people what happened and they were appalled by what I told them.

After that, we all went to Navy Pier and took a boat cruise to find out more of the history of Chicago, and after, as well as before the boat tour, M.J. and I went shopping for stuff. The first place that we hit was the Build-A-Bear Workshop. Carl, someone that we both know, tagged along with us. M.J. and I both got ourselves a stuffed Koala. M.J. named her Koala Aussie, while I named mine Andrea, after a friend of mine from high school. The other stops included the return trip to both the Irish shop and the Oriental shop to see what they have.

In the Irish shop, they had this plaque that I was interested in buying, but it turns out that the origin of my last name is unknown. It might be Irish, it might be Scottish, it might be Canadian, who knows? At this one interesting shop, they have these T-shirts that may look black and white at first sight, but expose them to the sun and it goes to an all-color showing. Bought me one of them! I also bought me a Chicago White Sox baseball hat and a glow-in-the-dark dragon statue. M.J. got herself a horse that was three different colors and that was so cool.

That will be all for today. I will try to report again tomorrow, if not Monday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Updates for the week...

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How is Thursday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me indeed, as I have news to share with you. As of last week... I lost a bet with someone I see at the program (due to the fact that I forgot about the article that I was in), which was pretty damn dumb of him to do; as, after all, a bit obsessed with pretty women (I'd wish he find a girl his own age), just like a certain ex-housemate of mine. They need to start finding women their own age, which is my honest opinion on it. That's all that I will say on that topic...

As for anything else, I am happy, I am getting more money from a source that I refuse to say out of respect for the source. On top of that, a female friend of mine (who, just like the last topic, I won't reveal the identity) is getting married and that is all that I will say on the topic. I am still looking for a good martial arts school, but I am taking time off from the search until the weather cools down because I can't take the heat anymore. Well, I have to get going now so that I can get to other things in my life, such as getting to work on time. I will report again sometime this weekend. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Updates for the day

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How is Monday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. I had to get to bed early last night because of the fact that I had to be at my day program today before 9:15 in the morning. I was on time to my day program, as always, so that is good for me. I also met up with some friends at the day program, mainly M.J., Shabnam, and Amy. Those three get my shout outs for today for the obvious reason and there you have it.

Friday and Saturday I went shopping to get some necessities and whatnot. Also, on Saturday, I delivered my request for one of those "American Storm" calendars as well as a subscription to Poets and Writers magazine. Next weekend will be the other two things that I have to send money by check for. And after that I have to start saving money to go to Las Vegas to see the show I was watching "Strip Search" for! :)

As for anything now, I have to get ready to go to work so that I can get my money. Well, I got paid on Friday but you lot know what I mean. As for those T-shirts that I got on Friday, one said Ireland on it (the one I am wearing today as I write this), as the other one said Italy on it, hee hee hee! Well now, and I hate to say this, but it is time for me to get going now. I will try to write again tomorrow. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix

Last entry for July

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How is Sunday treating you so far? I hope that all is going well with you as it is for me. This is the last entry for the month so that means that I will be doing entries like crazy for the month of August, also known as next month. :) No pictures or poetry today, but you lot will get some much needed updates! First, the Buddhist meeting today. It was all good although it ran longer than anticipated; and the snacks that was provided were good, even though I had me something to eat before I left the apartment today.

But other than that, I am still getting calls from telemarketers and that is a major pain in the ass. I am also getting calls from a certain ex-boyfriend of mine. NOT A GOOD IDEA THERE, MATE! Whatever the case, I only take calls from people that I can rely on, such as Lenore and my case manager Gregg. Anyhoo, ever since that accident on Dempster near Niles Center Road a few weeks ago, my philosophy on life has changed, but then again, it's always changing. Well, I have to get going now. I will try to write again tomorrow if not Tuesday. Laterz and peace!

Calisto Phoenix