New poem coming soon!

Hey hey!

I have a new poem, in the thought stages right now, and I might be titling it "Citing Alfred Hitchcock." Stay tuned for more info as it becomes available. Peace!

Calisto Phoenix

New Poem, "Anti-Star Struck"

Anti-Star Struck

If you weren't who you say you were, then I'd might stare at you

for days until my eyes fell off from my 25-year-old face...

Scary, but very true, I refuse to get star struck the way you do.

Ever since you accused me of envy, I can't bear to see your face again...

I don't think envy, I don't act envy, and I am not envy at all in my life.

You sound and probably are so insecure with you that you brought out

the very worst in me and most likely the very worst in you too.

Perhaps I should have known that it was you that gets my attention,

but then again, I don't care for the celebrity that you show to the world...

Maybe, just maybe, I could have reacted in a much better fashion.

I can't get this anti-star struck feeling out of my system at all,

however, I like it that way, and I refuse to become star struck.

I have grown, I have changed, and therefore, I am a humble being

that would only get star struck after the day I die here on earth.

And my death will not happen anytime soon so don't push your luck.

I'd rather be the humble being that I was born to be here on earth

and not some asshole that only wants to sleep with me or use me

for my body in any way, shape or even form whatsoever, since

I was raised to worship my higher power and to respect my body.

If only I was your one and only then I would have given up my body

to you and only you... to where I would bear your future children.

But now that we are two different beings and apart from each other,

it's best that you and I would be only civil to one another for all time.

I am not who you think I am at all, I know me much better than you...

so when I end this story once and for all, you shall see the light of reality

that struck you far too late in your life... oh wait... I meant far too soon.

Now that I am so very proud to say that I am very anti-star struck,

I can now live my life without regretting anything at all ever again.

And you will pay the price for the falseness you brought to my life.

Maybe not today nor tomorrow, but one day, and soon...

Readers: This work is brand new. I thought of this one in the midst of my quarrel with a certain someone that I was close to. She knows who she is. Hopefully people can treat others with the respect that they deserve and not accuse others of what all know isn't true. Enjoy otherwise!

Calisto Phoenix

Poem from poem book, "Superhero Lover"

Superhero Lover

Everything you promised me then, I want...

I yearn for you, my superhero kind of lover.

In case you didn't know by now, I'm all yours,

yours to save, yours to love, and yours to protect.

I don't ask for much nor am I a damsel in distress,

but you always save me from the losers and assholes

that only want my body and not the whole me.

I could have fallen for you then, but I

refuse to fall for anything and everything...

as I stand for something and someone that is special.

You never assumed my judgement as an evil wrong,

and you waited and waited for me to go to your arms,

and because of your patience, I'm eternally yours.

A star falls, and I wished for my version of

a superhero for a lover, yet my answer wasn't

immediately answered, but that answer came at the best

of timings in my life, when I was supposed to die

for a crime that I know I didn't commit at all.

Because of your love, I've changed completely

to become a much better person in my own life.

Now that our stars in the night sky are aligned,

You will always be "The One" for my heart,

and as we sit here in this bed together...

you simply are my superhero kind of lover.

This poem is for my Uncle Allen and his better half Karolyn.

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

Poem from my poem book, "Comfortably Numb"

Comfortably Numb

In your arms is the only place where I can truly belong,

and in your arms is where I feel so comfortably numb...

so comfortably numb, I can safely fall asleep here

to where I don't need to be anywhere else tonight.

Since all you want to do to me is to make sweet love

to a fragile body that belongs to me and only me,

I will be yours for an infinite number of lifetimes

and well beyond in the future history of the world.

You found me when I was dying a painful death,

nursed me back to the fullest of all healths;

all before we naturally fell in love, and in time,

what I once was will be no more after long.

You told me your darkest secrets and whatnot,

as I did and much more around the same time

I came back to my senses after my near death...

so now we are definitely made for each other.

I could've realized this feeling sooner rather than now,

but life throws me daggers in which I duck and dodge

to where I get overly sidetracked and lose my way

from where I started to where I am right now.

You and I have come to the center of a circle

of a fate that only brought us closer together,

so when I lay in your arms from now on...

I will always feel so very comfortably numb.

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

I am somewhat torn, but then again... never mind

Let's see here... I know something that most don't, and for that, it's killing me inside. I can't go into further detail as to why I feel that way, but then again, I'll explode if I do... so what does a girl like me to do???????????????? I might as well stay the fuck out of the way, and let things happen all by itself, RIGHT??????????????? I honestly don't know what to do now. I know something that shouldn't be revealed to the public, so I'll just shut up. Other than that... I am in a pretty good mood overall, which translates to the following: "Virginia, if you're happy, then WHY are you torn the way you are??????" Anyhoo, I have to type up a poem (which won't be here on Blogger) to give to my Uncle Allen for his wedding present when I see him during the first weekend in August. I'm sure I'll have a lot of fun, and I'll get away from the chaos in Illinois, so I'll be reflecting when I get back to Illinois after a fun stay in NC for four days. Well, I have to get going now. I have to make sure I get my errands done today before work. I will write again soon, either with another journal entry or a poem. Peace!

Virginia

New poem... "Take it Easy on Me... Please"

Take it Easy on Me... Please

My fragile heart has been broken by him...

and I don't want you to be the next one

that breaks my fragile heart in two... please.

Just take our love slow, don't rush a thing.

We have a lifetime to get what we want in this life.

I could beg for a little family now and regret later,

yet that is not me... it will never be me to beg that way.

I always knew that you were that special someone for me

but I didn't know how I was going to find you at all.

There was a point... in my young life... where I thought

that I wasn't going to find you at all in my lifetime.

Then again, I never gave up in me or in you.

I just wanted to let you know that I love you...

I will always and a day love you, for all life to come...

but my Buddhist ways will never allow me to cave in

to the negativity that always seemed to surround me whole.

I'll do what I can to keep our love strong, and on fire eternally,

but you also have to do what you can to do the same...

so I know in my heart that I was right when I said to you

that you are the one for me, always and forever more.

I will be here, waiting for you for eternity...

I love you, whoever and wherever you are.

Until we meet as soulmates at last...

Enjoy!

Calisto Phoenix

P.S. Here are some pics of me from this year so far. Enjoy them!

New poem (I actually just thought of this one), "The Best Has Yet to Come"

The Best Has Yet to Come

To start this new journey that I created for myself...

I must start over with a new love and a new life.

The beginning to an end that I could no longer bear

to cry over with tears of pain, sorrow, and remorse...

the best of me has yet to come at all.

I am alone in where I go, alone with no proper home,

but my new story is from the bottom of my yearning heart,

yearning to learn even more about me, and possibly you too,

it was never a difficult matter of "what do I do now,"

but a simple matter: "Why me and why now."

I do realize that I will die alone one day in the future,

and there is nothing I can do to prevent my own destiny,

I might as well take the best care of me possible,

and always say to that little evil voice in my head:

the best of me has yet to come at all.

I was in love and I was burned badly to a solid crisp...

but I realize now that that was my past... I must move on,

and move on I did to repair my body as well as my soul.

Although the best of me has yet to come,

I know my soulmate out there will be waiting for me.